Took Too Long To Realize It

okay so i feel the need to rant
like, I seriously cannot stand people who claim to be your friends, only to blatantly use or take advantage of you.

But what irritates me even more, are those people who do such a good job pretending to be your friend, you don’t realize what they’re really doing.

I've always prided myself on being the kind of friend that is there for people no matter what. And i often push my own feelings aside if it is for the benefit of others. But i came to the realization tonight that enough is enough.  I can't let people walk all over me and be complete assholes just because i'm scared of losing them as friends or because i won't be giving them what they need or want.

It hurts, really hurts, realizing that some of the people that mean so much to me, might not feel the same way after all. 

My Summer Goal!

i've decided...
this is the summer that i'm finally gonna take some initiative to be happy with the way i look
4 months. 40 pound. 
LEGGO; 

Me and Mr Wrong get along so good 

Even though he breaks my heart so bad 

We got a special thing going on

Me and Mr Wrong 

Even if I try, no, I never could

Give him up cause his loves like that

Ain't no way that I’m moving on

I love my Mr. Wrong;

So Hard To Say Goobye

last moments in my dorm room,
so many memories in 231;

Bestfriends

I can honestly say they were the best of the friends that i had
But YOU are my first real best friend.
And i gotta say,
I don't know what I'd do without you bud;

So It Has Been Confirmed..

I found out a couple days ago my brother is finally dating this girl he's liked for a long time
And my sister is still dating this really awesome guy that she's liked for quite some time
And then my boyfriend is.. oh wait..
Like, i don't wanna whine, but for real, starting to wonder what's wrong with me;

#firstwolrdproblems

Expression.

i've always been one to keep a diary, or at least try to keep one.

and as i've gotten older, i've found it difficult, until i found this blog

and i realized the other day that as fun as tumblr is, i can't express myself there the way that i can here

completely unafraid of who might read this

so i'm back and ready to write my life away

and i must say, i'm supa stoked;